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  • My secret photobucket was banned. Damn. All of my pictures, all of the depressing and disturbing things I loved, all gone. It told me I'd violated the terms of service. I didn't know it was against their terms to show …

  • He's only in basic training and I'm already scared shitless. It would be frightening how non-suicidal I am now, were it not suicide we were speaking of. Of course, it'll come back as easily as it faded away. You don't …

  • I know I can't do anything to hurt myself. I wouldn't put him through that; I hate when he feels vulnerable and not good enough. But there's the portion of my mind that's been working to convince me that he doesn't real…

  • I'm not certain whether I think about suicide more when I'm on the meds or off them. On the meds, I'm more deeply depressed. I'm more prone to feeling hopeless. I can't remember being happy on them more than a few times…

  • If I were to put out a personals ad, it would read: Fat, ugly, worthless 19 year old woman looking to marry anyone desperate enough to want her. Really, there's no other way I'd end up married except to attach myself t…

  • This girl is too ugly to exist.

  • What gives them the right? What gives them the right to assume they understand every self-injurer, everywhere, simply because they read books? Every time I go to a doctor, they see. They have to. Whether for blood work,…

  • I don't think I'm pregnant, but I've been considering what I'd do anyway. And I don't think I'd be able to get an abortion. Or to tell Him it's his. He'd find out. I wouldn't pressure him to take it. I think... I think…

  • Every day I whisper to myself, do it today. And every day, some part of me whispers back you're too fucking weak. Dear Santa, All I want for Christmas this year is a half pound of pure heroin. I haven't been a very g…

  • I moved back into the dorms. I'm on the sixth story. The windows open... it's a pretty long drop... But it's dirt underneath... I doubt it'd kill me. Imagine how it would feel to freefall plummet six stories. Maybe, if I…

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