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  • My secret photobucket was banned. Damn. All of my pictures, all of the depressing and disturbing things I loved, all gone. It told me I'd violated the terms of service. I didn't know it was against their terms to show …

  • He's only in basic training and I'm already scared shitless. It would be frightening how non-suicidal I am now, were it not suicide we were speaking of. Of course, it'll come back as easily as it faded away. You don't …

  • Holy fucking hell. I didn't realize how badly I used to cut. Fucking seriously. Shit. The scar isn't even bright anymore. It's that dull gray/purple/pink that would almost meld into the skin if it wasn't thickened and sh…

  • Such a fickle thing

    Why is it that when you're showering, the bleeding seems like it's stopped, but once you step out of the shower, it's all over the place again? It's not as bad as it was once upon a time ago, but it's damn close. And o…

  • It isn't really a cut. It's just a scratch. The skin's only a little split, you can only see a little of the fat. It's not even bleeding anymore really. And there's only the one. So it still counts as a scratch, right? …

  • What gives them the right? What gives them the right to assume they understand every self-injurer, everywhere, simply because they read books? Every time I go to a doctor, they see. They have to. Whether for blood work,…

  • There is no way to hide from him. My every action is seen and judged. I don't know how he'd react if I tore a gaping hole in myself. Disgust? Pity? Hatred? Self-hatred? Feign ignorance? Grow distant? Maybe he'd try t…

  • When I refer to cutting, should I think I am a cutter or I was a cutter? It wasn't a phase. I don't have some sort of delusion of worthlessness. I.Am.Despicable. My mindset has not changed. It simply isn't practical anym…

  • It's building... Tomorrow I'll be actively suicidal. Tomorrow I'll want to strangle myself, break out the noose, slice open an artery or two, smack myself across the face hard enough to bruise at the impact of each indiv…

  • uncertain92289 "WTF? You just leave it there and let it be an open wound like a centimeter wide? You're a dumbass for cutting like that for one, and not getting it stitched for two, and not seeking help from a counselor …

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