| | All from crying.
Whoever thought I had that many tears in me? I'm not much the crying sort.
I didn't even know my eyes could do that swollen ugly thing.
I'm relatively calm about it all, though. Tears notwithstanding. I was expecting it. I'd been expecting it since it started. I don't fault him.
I lost my home. That doesn't feel so great. But I'll live.
Unfortunately.
I spend a lot of time laughing, you know. Smiling, too. I have an ugly smile. But it happens a lot.
I can't think of a single damn thing that makes me happy, but I always seem to be such.
I can't think of anything that interests me anymore. It's all built of casual glances and polite disposition.
What's the point in living when you don't offer anything and the world doesn't offer anything to you?
I'm not suicidal right now. Really. I'm just having a bit of trouble seeing the point.
Btw, I think I took too many pain killers. I'm having a bit of trouble breathing and walking. (Of the high sort, not the ohemgee overdose sort)
Oh, and I might have cancer. Yep. Not the cool kind that makes you drop crazy weight and die, though. The shitty kind that costs you a ton of money even though it's usually not all that deadly and makes you GAIN weight because your thyroid stops functioning.
Life is wonderful.
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